Friday, December 9, 2011

Night Night Babies

Another epic night and day in Flickinger-topia. Buster was a real charmer today. He took his binki out while I sang him to sleep and sang with me. He sang "night, night baby" with me a few times then put his binki back in for the "its time to go to bed" part. Very cute. My little chamber choir is growing nicely. :)

Thursday, December 8, 2011


The month of November did not exist. Not really anyway. Its December now. I am more thankful for and in love with my husband and kids than ever. Michael is the most dedicated husband, father and employee. My respect and admiration for him is not easily put to words. Its December now, we're looking forward to celebrating Jesus' birthday and getting a tree soon.

I'm also thankful for sunsets. Eva and Kaitlyn love sunsets, and I love that they see how beautiful the natural world God created is. And snow, and mountains, and the moon and rainbows. All things the girls get excited about, and they always give credit to Jesus and his hand. Today Kaitlyn and Eva told me that God made the sunset, and he also made them. He "put their ears on" maybe He assembled them like a big potato head.

Friday, October 14, 2011 and Odds and Ends

Not a pork chop
Well, we haven't had time to eat everything that we've ordered yet from the new farm... We have been a wee bit sick with croup. Yes, all of us. And poor Buster ended up in the ER at 1am because he was having such a hard time breathing. I had no idea what was wrong with him, that afternoon he went from being slightly hoarse with a fever and going to bed easily to coughing and wheezing and barely able to breathe. I was shaking, I was so scared. But the folks at IRMC were great, really great. Even when I said no to the chest x-ray. I made one of the nurses give me a hug. Nurses can be mean and I was pregnant and at the ER alone w my baby after 1am. I needed a hug and I didn't want them to hate me for not wanting my little one to get radiated. ;) Hes not a pork chop. (Yes I know thats a totally different thing, laugh a little.)

Since Buster came down with this plague of croup we have all fallen with him. I wanted to call it a natural health fail but I don't think it was. Buster is nearly 100% better, E was only really sick 2 days and K, who I gave the least herbs to, is still sick, but she is only on day 2 or 3. Thats not so bad. 

Kerrygold butter melting!

The other night I made this soup.  It was the best chicken noodle soup that I've ever had. I roasted a chicken, then boiled all the bones with some magic for about 24 hours, then cooked some carrots, leeks, onions and celery in the broth. Added back in chopped chicken and some noodles. Oh my. Perfectly comforting and nourishing. Noah even loved it.

This is MINE
Don't take it!
I love raw milk!

As for, we loved it. The milk tastes perfect. Buster loves it, which is most astounding because before this I could barely get him to drink a cup of water or milk a day. He is up to THREE or more a day now. Praise God. :) That little man needs to grow. 

We made tacos from the beef and raw cheddar. Also great. We've had grassfed beef from Costco and this tasted cleaner and fuller, less fatty somehow. The apple cider was a nice autumnal treat too. If you're interested in clean, delicious, safe raw milk, I high suggest you check this place out.

Thursday, October 13, 2011


We're all sick and the house is a mess and all I feel well enough to do is update my blog and try to make it pretty using a cool template and background but somehow it is infinitely harder than my brain can figure out in its current state.

Maybe I'll figure it out when I feel better. Its not easy. At least not with my face swollen up from sneezing and sleep deprivation... 

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Raw Milk Ordered!

I placed my first order this afternoon here from! I will be sure to post how everything tastes. The staff were so nice they let me place my order well past the weekend drop off deadline. They have drop points all across the state.

Probably one near you! :)

This is what I ordered:

2Gallon Raw Milk
11/2 lb Cheddar Wedge
33 lbs Ground Beef (regular)
1Chuck Roast
11 bag Knuckle Bones
1Half Gallon Unpasteurized Apple Cider

We can't wait! 

Feeling SLOW

I am feeling so worn out! Things here have slowed down to an acceptable pace but I'm just exhausted. I guess thats part of being pregnant while having (essentially) three babies. I don't want to cook, I don't want to teach, I certainly can't clean very long with out feeling like passing out...

I need to remedy this fast. I have nourishing foods that my kids need to eat and floors that need to seen again! Hahah, yeah its bad people. 

I guess I will start by starting TODAY, not waiting till tomorrow morning. I'm going to actually take my prenatal vitamin, I already took a bunch of d3 and I will soon hit the echinacea tincture. Then its coffee and water while the girls sleep. Usually I'd clean while they sleep but if I do that when they wake up I will have used all of the energy on cleaning... =/ I HAVE to get them outside today. Its beautiful out. Maybe we will read our book outside, thats low impact. 

Beyond that I need more b-vitamins, I need ... raw milk, and I need more cheese and good eggs. I'm going to order some milk and cheese from this farm soon: Kind of excited about that!

I'm going to get some hunks of grass fed beef and bones and make roasts, which are so easy, and mashed potatoes and gravy, also easy. 

I need more sleep!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

A New Baby!

So, I thought it only appropriate to mention on here that we are having another baby! :) Little Flick Four is due sometime this February. We are very excited for his or her arrival. At first we were just like, "oh my gosh, four babies all age three and under," but now we're excited and feel more prepared for our newest addition. We are thankful that God is blessing us so abundantly with babies. We are doing our best to raise them to love Him and others. Its an awesome responsibility. 

I am about 21 weeks along, so thats around halfway. 

We aren't finding out the sex and have no baby names picked! Does anyone (read this blog? er lol I mean...) have any name suggestions? Leave any that you have in the comments. We need some good ones!

"Lo, children [are] an heritage of the LORD: [and] the fruit of the womb [is his] reward. As arrows [are] in the hand of a mighty man; so [are] children of the youth. Happy [is] the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate." Psalm 127

Thursday, September 29, 2011

The Great American Novel

Last night as I was making chicken pot pie with as much butter as I could find Noah and I were jamming to the late Larry Norman. This song came on and we sat to listen to it. He swayed along. Noah has always had great musical taste. 

The lyrics are moving and true. I haven't had much time to blog these days but I want to share these words.

I was born and raised an orphan
in a land that once was free

in a land that poured its love out on the moon
and I grew up in the shadows
of your silos filled with grain
but you never helped to fill my empty spoon

and when I was ten you murdered law
with courtroom politics
and you learned to make a lie sound just like truth
but I know you better now
and I don't fall for all your tricks
and you've lost the one advantage of my youth

you kill a black man at midnight
just for talking to your daughter
then you make his wife your mistress
and you leave her without water
and the sheet you wear upon your face
is the sheet your children sleep on
at every meal you say a prayer
you don't believe but still you keep on

and your money says in God we trust
but it's against the law to pray in school
you say we beat the Russians to the moon
and I say you starved your children to do it

you are far across the ocean
but the war is not your own
and while you're winning theirs
you're gonna lose the one at home
do you really think the only way
to bring about the peace
is to sacrifice your children
and kill all your enemies

the politicians all make speeches
while the news men all take note
and they exaggerate the issues
as they shove them down our throats
is it really up to them
whether this country sinks or floats
well I wonder who would lead us
if none of us would vote

well my phone is tapped and my lips are chapped
from whispering through the fence
you know every move I make
or is that just coincidence
well you try to make my way of life
a little less like jail
if I promise to make tapes and slides
and send them through the mail

and your money says in God we trust
but it's against the law to pray in school
you say we beat the Russians to the moon
and I say you starved your children to do it
you say all men are equal all men are brothers
then why are the rich more equal than others
don't ask me for the answer I've only got one
that a man leaves his darkness when he follows the Son

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Worth growing

I know almost nothing about gardening. You plant it, you water it, you weed it, sometimes you pour sour raw milk on it, and if you have any, you can put compost on it. Thats all that I knew getting into my first garden. Its doing really well... and I can't really take any credit for it.
Side shoots after the center head was harvested.
I bought my seeds from this place,, they're the best organic/heirloom seeds you can buy. It may cost $2.50 a seed packet but when you consider how much you save planting your own produce at all, you realize its completely worth it. Several things that I planted have utterly failed.

Carrots: failure to sprout
Celery: failure to sprout
Peas: died slowly from the roots up
Bullnose Peppers: grew too slowly though we might have some harvest by fall
Lambs Lettuce: failure to sprout

Several other veggies that I planted are THRIVING!
Nutribud Broccoli: This stuff is delicious. The heads are large and tender. And it continues to produce lots of side shoots of additional florets. It is the best tasting broccoli I've ever had.
Shoots that grew faster than I thought! They're about 2 days away from being too far bloomed.
Heirloom Tomatoes: They told me at Lowes that my tomatoes wouldn't grow from seed and that I should get some starter plants as back up. My heirloom plants are wild, huge and filled with tomatoes, much more so than the started plants I purchased locally. They're still green, I'll let you know how they taste.
Lemon Basil: This herb is flavorful and great in everything from white wine sauces to smoothies. I pruned it aggressively and it has thrived. Tomorrow morning we're having strawberry/lemon basil smoothies for breakfast, you need to try one!
Red Beets: Haven't eaten yet but they're doing well! The greens on them are also very sweet and slightly beet tasting. I'm going to put them on sandwiches this week.

There are other things growing nicely but these are the ones which have failed most epicly or thrived most beautifully.
VERY ready side shoots.
Next summer you really should plant some of these broccoli seeds. I can't even keep up with how fast they're producing now.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Puttin' the Kids to Work!

This week I put my three year olds to work! Well, kind of. :) We went blueberry picking and on this day I realized that I have two very eager helpers.  Eva and Kaitlyn LOVED blueberry picking. They had fun choosing just the right ones and the satisfaction of being able to eat as many as they wanted once we had finished. Here are some photos of our adventure. We had the pleasure of picking with some of our very dear friends as well. :) Aside from the dehydration it was a blast!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

How Does Your Garden Grow?

Weeds and seeds.
This is how I imagine many a garden starts.
With a shovel and some determination.
This is after a days work of "tilling" with my shovel. Eva and Kait helped a lot their their shovels.
Planted and fenced.

Pumpkin and watermelon sprouts.
Pumpkins now. 

LOTS of tomatoes.

This summer I dug, planted from seed and fenced my first ever garden. I had lots of helpers. Kaitlyn, Eva, Noah, Jesse R, Michael and Matt G to name a few. It's doing even better than I had hoped for a first time, wing it, garden. Rather than write about it here is a photo story of our humble garden.

Red beets, lemon basil, red basil, strawberry bush and onions.
Fresh picked for dinner!

From the bushel to the table.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

War: a rant.

Yesterday morning and I michael and I were sitting in the waiting room for Eva to come out of surgery. The Today Show was playing low in the background as anxious waiting parents distractedly watched the happy faces blabbering on the screen. Then, a break from the glib for a news update, "blah, blah, blah, five men killed in Iraq this morning in a rocket attack, blah, blah, blah. Lets go grill some bacon wrapped pork tenderloin!" At the first sound of this report I jump out of my seat and over to the tv so I can hear it, "What did she say?" I ask the grandpa sitting next to me. "Five died." Now my thoughts about how Eva is doing turn rapidly to is Matt ok?? Holy crap is Matt ok. We google where the attacks happened. How close is that to Matt? Was his route near that base...? 

Those poor men and their families. My heart breaks for them. They have died for nationalism, for money, for men who sit in high places and command them about based on their own selfish desires. Let me be clear, these men in Iraq are not fighting for our freedom. Many believe that any soldier who dies inherently dies for freedom, for our precious freedom. No, I don't think so. I wasn't attacked by Iraq, the United States wasn't attacked by Iraq. There is money to made in there. Not just oil, lets remember how much money contractors make and the arms that must be produced and sold. Someone is making big money off of this.

But thats not romantic is it? Its not politically correct to say that someone you love died for money, in fact it seems down right heartless. The only heartless act is done by the man who commands these troops, it is done by the men who reap the cash and political power. 

The Christian Church wants people to believe that fighting in our military is honorable, that these brave young men and women are fighting for you and me. War is romantic, war is honorable, war is good, God bless America!

Who was the first one to start a war...? Satan, as he rebelled against God in heaven. Death is a painful consequence of sin. God does not rejoice in the destruction of the wicked. Not in the least. He is just, He desires to see us working in love as the body of Christ. God is not up in heaven saying, "go get 'em boys!" as a convoy rolls out in Iraq. What is God's desire? It's that all men would come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ! Not that every anti-American muslim gets a bullet in head! Wake up Church. War is death, war is filthy and war is evil. God save us!

I hope that every anti-American muslim hears the gospel, repents and joins me one day at the banquet table with my Lord. 

Friday, June 3, 2011

Eva's Eye Surgery

Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day [is] the evil thereof. Matthew 6:34
Eva's eye surgery is this Monday at 7:15am. I haven't spent any time worrying about it, its something thats been on the books for months... I'm not officially worried yet but my heart is starting to crumble a little bit. I got this email from Michael with the information from Children's Hospital. 

Arrive at "Surgery Center" @ 7:15am
On Sunday Eva can eat anything until midnight.
After Midnight, until 5:15 am the next day, she is only allowed water,
apple juice, or Gatorade.
After 5:15am (Monday) no fluids whatsoever.
Eva can wear her own clothes into the operation if she's wearing
two-piece clothing.
(shirt/pants) No snaps or zippers allowed.
She is allowed a favorite toy or stuffed animal which she can have with her.
I was fine until I imagined my sweet baby girl going back for surgery clutching to her yellow banket she has had since birth, which she recently named bullseye after the horse from toy story 3. We have no family history of adverse reactions to anestesia. Well, no one has died from it, though it causes me to vomit and vomit and vomit. =/ I am praying that she does well and I trust that she will.

If you're wondering why or what surgery she's having, its for a closed tear duct that never opened. Most children have the surgery before their first birthday but I wasn't able to bring myself to put her under anestesia that young. They will flush out her tear duct with saline solution and then put a tub in to facilitate drainage. In a month or two the doctor will pull the tube out in his office.

Please pray for her to have peace through this. She is my most anxious child and I want her to feel loved and supported. Please pray that she has no adverse reactions to the anestesia and that the tube system works on the first try. Please also pray for me, that I would be able to peacefully meet her needs as well as the rest of my family without allowing fear or worry to stress me out. Thank you friends!
But without faith [it is] impossible to please [him]: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and [that] he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. Hebrews 11:6

Saturday, May 28, 2011

A quick update!

Our life has been moving so fast and that I haven't had any time to write it down! We totally rocked the girls birthday party. It was wonderful, to God be the glory! There is nothing that I love more than cooking and enjoying time with friends and family. We pulled off the entire menu that was mention in a previous post and I managed to whip up some tasty gravy too. :)

Humble beginnings
In the time since then I dug and planted a garden (mostly) from organic heirloom seeds. I can't wait to see it grow. The girls absolutely helped me. They love to help, I think they feel like more of a contributing member of the family when they actually help, and they actually do help. I didn't think they'd be legitimately helpful until they were 4 or 5 years old but they're just three and have great joy in being mommy's helpers. Tonight they even put their shoes on the rack without anyone asking them. Its hard for me to remember simple things like that so I have to give them credit! They're always tossing Noah's diapers in the trash or retrieving a binki for him or getting him a toy. They even argue over who gets to feed him yogurt.

Full-body coloring!

In the last few days I planted 15 strawberry seedlings, 2 lavender plants, 6 tomato plants and some other stuff. I also fenced our garden to keep evil bunnies out. Yes those evil bunnies! Sharon, in her awesomeness, came by and helped me transplant several hostas too! We had a nice cookout today with my in-laws, parents and brother in laws. We've been busy, we've all been learning and the girls have even had a few official preschool lessons. All in all I am relishing this sweet season of my life. Today I stood inside helping Kaitlyn go potty and was able to peer out the window at my family all together enjoying themselves. I was moved with thankfulness. God has given me such beautiful living blessings and I'm so thankful that He has also given me a measure of wisdom and strength to love and care for them. He is so good!
Springs first flowers

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Having Fun and Calling it School

Having fun and calling it school, thats what homeschooling for preschool is. Today we pulled out some great birthday presents the girls received and had "school." It wasn't hard or painful because preschool really is fun!

Kaitlyn and Eva learned all about how seeds grow into flowers, herbs and tomatoes. They got to play with dirt, use their minds and hands to learn and of course, had fun the entire time. Their chubby little fingers pressed the seeds into the dirt and they carefully added just the right amount of water to their tiny pots. 

When we visited daddy at the Commonplace (coffee shop) the very first thing they told him was that they had planted seeds into pots! They even told him which seeds they planted and how they did it. I don't know what elementary schooling will hold for us, but for now, we like to have fun and call it school.    

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


In just five days we will be hosting Eva and Kaitlyn's third birthday party at our home. We've got some serious goals that we wish achieve in the next few days.

First we've got to clean the whole house, top to bottom. Part of our house is always clean but all of it is never clean at the same time, for their party I would like all parts to come together in beautiful clean harmony. We've got things all across the house that need touched up with paint, carpets that need scrubbed, toys box bins that need built (preparing the fields for rain), couches that need moved, bookshelves dismantled and books relocated, things need trashed, and the list goes on.

In the last week we removed an old and installed a new light fixture, painted a chalk wall, disassembled and removed our dearly loved coffee cabinet which we purchased from wal-mart when first married. It was broken down and about to collapse on a dear little one. We nailed the quarter round into the floor of the bedroom. (Finally! Yay!) Built the children a book shelf, toy bin, and removed a strange and out of place ceiling fan from the family room. I hung up some new owl art that I got from a friend... So much is going on.

For the party I decided that I wanted to serve real food. We eat real food, the girls prefer real food, so it seemed to be a logical decision. For our menu I chose the easiest real food options I could think of, that were still pleasing to our children.

*Turkey prepared two ways. One shall be deep fried in peanut oil and the other shall be baked in the oven, slathered in butter from grass fed cows and sea salt.
*Mashed potatoes, with butter, garlic and cream.
*Oven roasted asparagus with sea salt, cracked black pepper, olive oil and balsamic vinegar.

We will also have lots of fresh fruit, the girls are obsessed with fruit.

Michael and I are also baking their cake... We're making a rich chocolate cake layered with buttercream icing and strawberry puree. We practiced making small, normal sized, cakes but we must make a 1/2 sheet cake for the party. Did I mention that 27 people were coming? I almost want to run out my side door and run around my yard screaming "27 people are coming, 27 people are coming! ahhh!!!" I will refrain. 

I hope that everything comes together easily and happily. The turkey only needs tossed in the oven, most people eat turkey so dry they could pull a tooth out so I doubt anyone will notice how it turns out, but I have a feeling it will be good. The mashed potatoes can be made the night before and served in our borrowed buffet warming station. And the asparagus is so easy, it only roasts for 12 minutes... I see a recipe for winning all over...
Cake trial #2. Total fail.

There is a saying, "aim for the moon and even if you miss you'll land among the stars." I don't know who said that but it doesn't seem like that will be the case if I fail this food and house-keeping challenge. Fortunately, my last name is Flickinger, translated, "epic winner" from the original German.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Abide in His love!

Have you ever tried to force yourself to do something? Have you ever tried to will yourself to change? I certainly have, and recently I've been attempting to will myself to be a more joyful and patient mother. Each day I'd wake up, determine that THIS day I would be kinder, THIS day I would be more gentle and certainly more joyful... I was surprised to find that each day would go the same as the day before, I would try hard to be the best mom, to be the happiest, most consistant and yet also flexible mommy. Even still I would lose my temper. I wasn't enjoying my children or myself. Throughout the day I'd say to myself, "Ok, that wasn't good, I'll just try to be more joyful." And then I'd sing a song or try to tickle and love the girls. I was trying SO hard. I wanted so desperately to be slow to anger, quick to love, steady in my temperament. I couldn't make it happen. I was continually frustrated-- frustrated by the kids and frustrated by my own inability to change into the mom that I desire to become.

I'm not sure exactly when but I realized that I wasn't going to be able to will myself to change. I don't know why I thought I could... 
Photo Credit: Dan at Free Digital Photos
I am desiring to be be more fruitful. I just realized that everything I want to see in myself are fruits of the spirit! I cannot force myself to bear fruit! Wow, really? No, I can't. There is a far better remedy for my conflicted mommy heart. I need to abide in Christ, I need to abide in His love and He will bear fruit in me!

Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. I am the vine, ye [are] the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. John 15:4-5. 

Ah, a sigh of relief, honestly, I am sighing here right now at the coffee shop thinking about abiding in my savior. Our God doesn't desire to make us better people, or better mothers, or even better missionaries, He wants us to fall more deeply in love with Him every single day and by spending time with Jesus we ARE changed, we are transformed into his image by beholding his face. 

But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, [even] as by the Spirit of the Lord. - 2 Corinthians 3:18

To abide in Christ is to abide in His love and to walk in His Spirit, to follow His commandments. And what glorious commandments they are! We are commanded to DO two things, (please note that these are not DO NOT commands, God wants us to be DOERS, not worried abstainers!) We are commanded to love God and to love people.

Then one of them, [which was] a lawyer, asked [him a question], tempting him, and saying, Master, which [is] the great commandment in the law? Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second [is] like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets. - Matthew 22:37

Love, love, love, love! Hallelujah! 

As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love. If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love. These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and [that] your joy might be full. John 15:9-11

He loves you! Believe it and rest by faith in the FACT that He loves! He will change you as you rest in Him! 

God is going to bear the fruit of the Spirit in my mothering, in my life because I believe that He loves me and I choose to abide in His love by faith. 

Meditate on the love that God has for you through Christ. He desires to be intimate with you just as you are, you will be refined, melted down, perfected, by beholding his face and worshiping the God who loves you more than we can even fathom.

That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love, May be able to comprehend with all saints what [is] the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, Unto him [be] glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen. - Ephesians 3:17-19

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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Journeying to Complete Health

This story starts with me and my GIANT thyroid, and I do mean giant. You can see it bulging from my throat. After some preliminary blood work to determine thyroid function came back normal I went to a rather unfriendly endocrinologist in Indiana seeking consultation on the reason my thyroid was so large. Perhaps I had cancer, maybe my thyroid really wasn't functioning well...

This Doctor was almost no help to me at all. I learned three things, my thyroid is moderately large, I have some small lumps (goiter) on it and it is functioning normally for now.

Wow... Thanks doc... He also said the goiter could be cancer but its probably not and if it was I probably wouldn't die from it... Ok... So some of you may be thinking that this information was sufficient for me. Well, it wasn't nor should it have been. He asked me no questions about my diet, lifestyle or stress level, nor did he explain to me that when a thyroid is enlarged the pituitary glad will often work double duty to keep thyroid levels normal for a period of years until it can no longer maintain the balance and the thyroid levels drop, requiring synthroid.

I'd rather avoid this so for now I've decided to start adding a little organic kelp powder to my meals each day. I ordered it from The Bulk Herb Store

Kelp is naturally high in iodine and iodine is critical for proper thyroid function. Furthermore, lack of iodine can result in nodules on the thyroid, which I have. Because Iodine is depleted from our soil it is often added to table salt and labeled thusly. Well, we don't eat table salt here. In fact, we've been eating kosher salt or sea salt for years and I believe that it's likely that I have an iodine deficiency. I believe that lots of people suffer from iodine deficiencies. 

Some other fun facts about iodine via kelp is that it taste's like the Pittsburgh Zoo Aquarium. My first attempt at consumption was to mix it with apple juice. FAIL! Yesterday I added it to a grilled provolone and tomato sandwich with fresh chopped garlic and Italian herbs, thankfully I wasn't able to taste it. Today, trying the Matt Getz approach, I added it to my taco with a heavy dose of Cholula hot sauce. I realize that I need to be consuming more than just a dash once a day but for now a little here and there will get me used to the aquarium flavor and in time I hope to have a happier thyroid. :-)

Monday, January 24, 2011

Failure to Nap

If you have children you know the afternoon routine, crying abounds, sharing stops and it seems as though if you so much as look at your child the wrong way they'll lose every bit of their 2 year old self control and fly off the handle.  It should come as no surprise to me that when this happens in my house I lose all of my grown up 26 year old self control as well.  The crying, the whining, the faces drawn with exhaustion and the iron will to stay awake at all costs.  This afternoon I was wondering why God gave me twins.  Why two?  I often wonder what on Earth He was thinking to give ME two children at the same time.

I guess I'm a little bit like Moses, who after being chosen by God to lead his people out of Egypt began to question God's decision to use him as their leader.  Moses didn't think he was qualified.  Maybe he wasn't but it was Moses that God wanted to lead his people and the Lord was not at all pleased that he didn't think God had chosen the right man.  The fact is, God chose to give me two children at once.  I probably wouldn't have picked the two for one deal myself but its what I got.  

Lord, I don't know what you are thinking, I'm not that patient, I'm not that loving, I'm not that kind, I'm not that gentle. Please, equip for me for the daunting task, and blessing that you have set before me!!

Can I get an Amen...?

And Moses said unto the LORD, O my Lord, I [am] not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I [am] slow of speech, and of a slow tongue. And the LORD said unto him, Who hath made man's mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the LORD? Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say. Exodus 4:11-13

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Faith like a Child

A few weeks ago my 2 and a half year old daughter Kaitlyn had a fever of about 102.5.  We all laid hands on her and prayed for God to quickly heal her and bring down the fever.  I also called the Dr. to make sure that they weren't concerned about it and life carried on at our house.  At lunch time, as Kaitlyn was sitting across from me she sweetly explained that something supernatural was happening, "Mommy, my ear hurts me, but Jesus is healing it. It will be fine." My heart leaped at the adorable statement of my child. "Oh, thats wonderful Kaitlyn. He certainly will heal your ear." When I told her Daddy later in the day he just smiled and said something like, "hmmm, thats awesome. I'm glad." He didn't really seem surprised nor did he question the validity of her faith filled statement.  To be honest, I hoped that Jesus would heal her ear and I, in part, believed that He absolutely would but there was a part of me that doubted.  I tell the children all the time that God loves them, that He loves to heal and work in our lives and the lives our friends.  They've been part of a few miracles already and they have seen with their own eyes the working of the living true God and yet I still held a seed of doubt.   It was a small kernel but it was there.

Kaitlyn's fever broke that same day and no one else in the family got sick with the exception of me.... Though it was a time of learning and prayer for me, and thankfully the sickness passed quickly.

About a week later Kaitlyn was periodically touching her ear and mentioned again about Jesus healing it.  I told her that we ought to exercise wisdom, something that both the girls and I have been learning about asking for more of, and visit the doctor to confirm that her ear was totally clear.

This is the part where things get good.  Kaitlyn and I were sitting in the doctor's office together, enjoying the sweet peacefulness of our company, just she and I.  We prayed that the doctor we saw would be kind and that God would make Kaitlyn brave.  God does not disappoint.  Our doctor walked in and when he asked Kaitlyn how she was feeling she clearly told him, "Jesus healed my ear, I'm fine."  I laughed, almost nervously.  Now our doctor will think that we're religious nut-jobs!  Then I thought... wait a minute, I think we are... I told the doctor the story of her ear hurting, the fever and how we prayed for Jesus to heal it.  He just smiled.  I told him that I wanted it checked to be sure.  Wouldn't you know that her ears were just fine!  The doctor told me that there was a very small amount of fluid in one of the ears that could have been from a slight runny nose or an ear infection that had cleared up.  I was so happy.  I was so proud of my little girl.  I said aloud, "see Kaitlyn! Jesus really did heal your ear! Praise God!"  The doctor replied with a smile as he walked out the door, "I am sure that Jesus can heal you far better than I ever could."

How wonderful is that?  Kaitlyn just learned the lesson of faithful prayer resulting real healing; and the doctor we saw that day was bold enough to confirm it to her.  Wow, just wow.  I want to receive the kindgom of God like a child.  Happy to believe, quick to sing and praise Jesus, and confident that God loves me, wants me to be well and hears MY sweet prayers.  Your prayers are sweet to God, just like its sweet to me when I hear the girls pray for the Caton's or Uncle Matt Getz, God is moved with the sweetness of our big grown up prayers.  He loves us so much.  He loves us so much that I'll never be able to explain just how much that so much is.

My prayer for today is that we can each learn to let go of what the world has taught us about faith, God and our relationship with him, and begin to openly, un-ashamedly, worship him for who He is and believe Him for what He says he desires to do in our lives.

Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God. Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child, he shall not enter therein. And he took them up in his arms, put [his] hands upon them, and blessed them. - Mark 10:14-16

Let your savior lift you in his arms and hold you. I am confident that He wants to.