I am sitting in the coffee shop, my corduroy maternity pants that I've had since I got pregnant with E and K are just barely fitting. They're covered in lint and other crap, I have no idea what. They're black too, so I look reallllllly nice. I'm also pretty sure I smell interesting. Giving in to my hippie self I have only been showering with Dr. Bronner's peppermint castile soap for a week and have been rubbing ghee (clarified butter) on my skin nightly. Its really dry and the ghee works better than anything else that I've tried. I am also enormous, bulbous, rotund. I'm not sure how far along I am, maybe 37 weeks, maybe 38. maybe 40. We don't know, so its a fun guessing game. I'm pretty in tune with my body and I think my actual due date isn't until February 10th or so. If things go as they have before I'll pass right by that date and the baby will come mid/end of February. Yoi. I'd like to have the baby now, today even. The sooner the better. The older the baby is by summer the more stuff we can do. Stuff like camping, hiking, staying up late cooking and drinking wine. January through May are waste months anyway. What better time to be trapped at home with a newborn? Lol. Seriously though.
I'm getting excited for the labor and delivery of baby flick 4. I'm looking forward to holding and cuddling a brand new Flick. I'm also looking forward to the actual labor. Delivering a baby is like running a marathon, half marathon or for some just a 5k. I'm anticipating a half marathon or maybe a 10k. I look forward to giving in to the rushes and allowing my body to open up and help the baby out. The birthing process is so powerful and unique for each woman. Its the definition of awesome. Its incredible. I know how bad it hurt at points last time and I'm more prepared for those times.
Part of the reason I'm so excited is that I'm giving birth at clinic on a farm in the middle of Amish country. I had wanted a home birth but for various reasons decided against it. The main reason being that in the event of an emergency I don't want to transfer to Indiana hospital. Me + Indiana hospital birthing/maternity care don't mesh. The clinic I'm delivering at is quaint, small, homey. In fact the midwife has a 2 minute commute from her back door to the clinic. She is confident, calm, well informed. She's been catching babies since she was 16. Her mother was a midwife before her and taught her most of what she knows. She's caught over 1,000 babies. This woman has seen a lot. I trust her and can't wait to get this show on the road.
E and K are walking around the house pregnant and delivering babies every day. K didn't make it to her midwife's house and delivered her baby on the road. Hahah.
Things have calmed down at home. We have all kinds of new things and appliances. I don't feel so much like a college student living with ugly old furniture. We got new couches and a new kitchen table is coming next week. Can't wait. Michael is also on his way to becoming a master plumber. He is really freakin' cute as a plumber. And as every other hat that he wears.
I'm going to get back to my chai tea now and relax.