Sunday, June 23, 2013

Free to Try, Free to Fail, Free to Succeed

A week ago I climbed a mountain. I really, truly, scaled a huge rock and stood hundreds of feet above the tree tops. I was actually climbing higher than a hawk was soaring. It was incredible. I was able to share the experience with my dad and brother as a Father's day/my birthday celebration. It's something we will all cherish forever. 
Standing on the summit

As I look back on that experience there is one thing that stands out to me more than anything else: there is no way that I could have done it with my strength alone. I am not strong enough, or fit enough to climb to the summit. I'm not even sure that I'm brave enough. But I prayed, I prayed before we left, I asked friends to pray, and every step I took, every time I wasn't sure about my footing I prayed. And after I found my footing I prayed again! God so sweetly helped me up that mountain. 

My dad says that how we do anything is how we do everything. I did this climb by praying every single step, and in many ways its the same way I'm living my life. A few months ago my husband left his full time job at a great company to go full time at his own business. It's been a lot like climbing a mountain. We prayed before we decided to make this move, asked everyone we knew for prayer, we asked God if this was what He wanted us to do, and then thanked Him as He perfectly brought everything together. Truthfully, going full time at our own business is just like climbing a mountain. It's scary. The same thoughts sometimes fill our minds; what if we slip, what if we misstep, what if we only make it half way and have to find our way back down? But more than any fear, we have calm assurance, trust in our savior that He is leading our steps, helping us find our footing each time and taking us to the top. And so we pray, we pray without ceasing about this, and many other things. 

The last time I climbed Nelson Rocks I wept as I crossed the rope bridge. I cried saying, "I've never done anything with my life! I will never do anything! I'm so afraid to fail and even more afraid to succeed." Something about walking suspended over the tree tops can bring some issues out! That was ten years ago. As I crossed the bridge this time I was able to do so rejoicing. God has brought me so far. He has taught me the depth of His love and the complete forgiveness that He paid for me. I am free to try, free to fail, free to succeed because I am God's and He cares for me no matter what. So, I sang as many verses as I could make up of the David Crowder's cover of "Thank You for Loving Me." I sang thank you for saving me, thank you for changing me, thank you for directing me, thank you for healing me, thank you for blessing me. I could sing thanks to Jesus forever. I am just so thankful. I am just so loved by God and its so freeing.
God's beautiful work.

I know that our Lord cares about our lives. He cares about me climbing a mountain with my family and He cares about our business. I know that He has a wonderful purpose for us that we are living out right now. I am enjoying the climb. I'm loving the beauty of His creation and plan, I'm rejoicing with each step and I'm excited to see what He has in store for us. I want to serve Him more than anything else. I want Jesus to be glorified in my life. I know I am a flawed human being, but I also know that I am redeemed, and am being transformed, and that God chooses to use broken humans for His glory! 

All photo credit goes to Michael Valentino

1 comment:

  1. I love this post, Jennifer! Your dad is a very wise man, and I think I will meditate on what he says this week. Thanks so much!